Confession (cont.)

A couple more things...This means that things I learn should be relevant to my current experiences. I shouldn't get bogged down by conceptual theory. There's nothing wrong with learning things that aren't directly relevant, as they may be relevant at some point. But I should make sure that learning things related to my current experiences are first.

This will also mean more time spent with people and engaging in good conversation, and seeing incredible value to that. I think another root of this desire for living in the present with what I learn is that I think we get the most out of our relationships with other people - more so than books most of the time.

Confession

I have a confession to make. I've been stuck in a rut for I don't know how long, in which I've been so focused on the future that I haven't fully engaged with the present. A lot of this has concerned how I envision my vocation in life - in all aspects: job, friends, etc. And part of my vocation includes what I learn and how I share it with others. And since I'm going to seminary next year, I've been waiting until I become trained and prepared to share what I've been learning, which has prevented me from sharing the process. I have a confession: I dream of writing a book. That's embarrassing to admit because it's pretentious. But I'm getting fed up with myself being caught up in the future. I'm learning new things every day, and I'm engaging those things with people I love every day. So instead of preparing to live life, I'm ready to start living life right now.

I think this will mean more blog posts. It doesn't get the return that a book or article does, but it's present and it's real (haha, I write this as though more than 3 people actually read this...and that might be an exaggeration).